Posted by: hoyden | June 2, 2012

Too much thinking is hazardous to your health

It’s a lovely night out. A mild 98*F or so. Good night for a ride.

I was on my bike thinking about how lax I’ve been in posting to razorgirls.org lately. It seems that I write here when I’m feeling especially inspired, nostalgic, for a project update, or a trip report. But rarely do I write just to think out loud.

Inspiration has been slow coming these past few months, my project bike is on hold, I haven’t been on any trips as of late (well, I guess I did go to New York a couple of months ago…), and as for nostalgia, well, it’s become more and more apparent that the old refrain “you can never go home again” has lasted this long as a tired cliché for a reason, so why harp on it? Because we can’t help ourselves but to remember those bittersweet days of youth. Songs are written about it, movies are made about it, writers write about it. I am no exception.

I have been missing home something bad lately, but just visiting doesn’t do the trick. I need a way-back machine to take me back to the steamy, irresponsible, wandering summers of my rebellious teen years.

This particular nostalgic thread has been flitting in and out of my over-taxed brain for a while now. Stress does wonderful things to the wishful thinking lobe in our brain. I think if they looked at the brain under a machine that goes “ping!” they would find that the wishful thinking area lights up the more stress it undergoes.

(it is also becoming painfully obvious that I need a keyboard attachment to my iPad if I’m going to continue to write anything longer than a Facebook update cuz this touch keyboard is a pain in the ass.)

On that note, I’m going to post this now and hopefully will motivate to post a more interesting piece once I get to a keyboard.

Posted by: hoyden | May 14, 2012

Update

I’m typing this from my new iPad and can’t help but wonder what the next cool thing will be. I must admit that the auto-correct on this is kinda neat.

I haven’t written here in a while. I’ve been busy creating a retail store. Its been exciting, fun, Scary, humbling, nervewracking, and exhilarating. I am looking forward to each day now wondering what new discovery I will make – even if it’s a setback discovery. The setbacks are just frustrating challenges that I know I’ll find solutions for.

So, this is a somewhat disjointed update from my touchscreen iPad.

I think I want a keyboard.

Posted by: hoyden | February 22, 2012

Sisyphus

It’s no secret that I consider myself Agnostic. And if you want to get really technical about it, I suppose I’d be considered more of an Agnostic atheist, although I do still identify as a Unitarian Universalist. (yay “free and responsible search for truth and meaning”) and dabble with my Jewish history (I like Hanukkah ;-) )

I’m reading Camus essays “An Absurd Reasoning: Absurdity and Suicide” – a sort of prelude to “The Myth of Sisyphus”. I haven’t looked at this book in years. The last time I picked it up was probably in 1998. Oh, I’ve flipped through it a few times over the years, but haven’t really given it much deeper thought. But now, as I read this first essay, I can’t help but wonder: if there is not some greater meaning, then what a cruel joke it is for us to have the capacity to wish for, yearn for, desire greater meaning. What is it in us that creates this terrible thought and desire?

It would be easy to say that God did this to us for some <quote Bible here> reason, but that to me seems just as ridiculous and vague as the idea of us longing for meaning when there is none. Camus calls it Absurd.

I wonder if Douglas Adams was right? In which case, I need a better calculator.

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