calculated abandon

I love riding to work.

In Chicago I rode every work day if humanly possible. It was ten miles to downtown from my house in the south side. I would hop on Lake Shore Drive and have Lake Michigan to the right and to my left was Jackson Park (an actual park, where the famous 1893 World Columbian Expo was held), Hyde Park (a suburb and where the venerable Univerity of Chicago is located) and then finally, the city.

Traffic was never too bad from that direction and I would usually get to work without any frustration. It was a great way to wake up in the morning and also focused my headspace before work. I had none of those usual car distractions: radio, cell phone, horns, sleepy unconscious driving. On a motorcycle you have to be alert. You wake up rather quickly once you get on the bike.

I would get to work refreshed with a bounce in my step, which I noticed wasn’t quite as marked when I took the train to work.

Because of the daily jaunts, I became intimately connected with my bike. I knew all the sounds, wiggles and perculiarites of the bike. I now only ride my bike a couple of times per week, and I can feel the difference. I have a connection with my bike, but it is not my default mode. I know the wiggles and peculiarites, but I’m not as comfortable as I could be.

Now I live four miles from work. The route takes me though a lovely curvy road through a hilly park in Phoenix. As far as in-city riding goes, this is a favorite little jaunt for late-night hooligan riding. But four miles never seems worth the effort to put on the textiles over my work clothes, ride to work and then ten minutes later have to strip down to my work clothes and change shoes. My hair is unkempt, which at my previous job in IT mattered little, but now I work with people frequently and my appearance matters more.

Today I rode to work for the first time in many months. It felt great. All the nagging thoughts and morning mind wandering disappeared for those fifteen minutes it took to get to work. The morning air was cool with a promise of a lovely day and I zig-zagged up my hooligan road. When I arrived at work, I clocked in, then stripped off my outer layer and folded my gear onto a spare chair in my office. There is an odd comfort having my helmet sitting on my desk near my right arm. It is the promise of a freesom to come, a knowledge that in a few short hours, I will be back on my bike with that feeling of a calculated abandon. My swirling thoughs pushed aside, still there but not bothering my conscious mind, like computer processes running in the background.

motorcycle related!

Razorgirls.org originally started as a motorcycle oriented website. Those of you who remember it from those many years ago, know that it was full of useful moto-information and links. We also had pages for the various members and their bikes. While we still have some moto-information and fun on this site (see sidebar), it is not geared in the way we would like. The intention was not to have a random “blog.”

We would like to get back to our roots, while continuing with some of the rambling that has been happening here lately.

Razorgirls.org will be posting more vintage-bike related photos and events. We are linking with the active and semi-organized Arizona Cafe Racers to kickstart the near invisible Phoenix cafe bikers to come out and play

For as large an area this Phoenix-land is, and with such a decent population size, there is a lack of cool vintage bike stuff happening.

This is changing.

old age

I didn’t know there is an entry in Wikipedia about old age.
Look! An old person:

Most of the people I work with are elderly. When I am sitting in my office, I can hear them talking in the other room. One of the men spends an inordinate amount of time regaling the others about the deliciousness of king crab legs. I have to say I agree with him. I thought momentarily, “I hope I never become that old person who only talks about good foods they once ate.” Then I started really listening and found the discussion sweet. The talk went from king crab legs to exchanging details about grandchildren to how relaxing cruises are.

This doesn’t sound too bad to me.

Sure, there is plenty of talk about hip injuries, or friends in the hospital for various old-people ailments (heart conditions, blood pressure issues, strokes, eye problems, odd rashes….) Right now they are talking about (heart) stints and baby aspirin.

For young, healthy people this kind of talk can seem terrifying. “THIS is what I have to look forward to? Living on a fixed income, lack of mobility, body failing? Sounds awful!”

But what those young people are missing is the richness of life these people have with their friends and family. The depth of their relationships and the vastness of their knowledge. Getting old can be frightening. It scares me. The nice thing about it is that it tends to happen gradually so you ease into it. I got eye glasses five years ago. My eyesight had gotten noticeably worse over time, and my first pair of glasses took some getting used to, but after a while I have come to accept them as part of my life now.

One of the elderly women came to me and joked with me that she has a “two-hour bladder and crooked fingers.” She finds humor in her aging. What a great way to deal with the weirdness of your body changing without your say-so!

I want to be like her when I get old.